October 8, 2007
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So over the past 2 years of intense study of how I interact with humans I have come to the conclusion that my odds of remaining single are extraordinarily high. There are three broad reasons for this.
1st reason, first cause it is of least influence, is my looks. Now don't start thinking with fake compassion that I hate my body, and think I am fat and therefore ugly. I know I am fat, I have accepted that God made me this way and I am ok with being big, and I do not think I am ugly because of it. I often consider this particular trait a gift and have throughout my life thanked the Lord for the many blessings it has brought me.
2nd, and placed second because I am working from least influence to greatest and this is about midway between least and worst, is my wandering ways. I don't seem to stay put long enough to let a relationship develop to the nessesary level to take it to that final step.
3rd, and placed so because of the three slots available this is the only one left, is simply because I am an ass. I tend to not be as diplomatic as is commonly accepted by the general public. I tend to say what I think, and quickly tire of walking on eggshells around someone elses over emotional, self centered life. Mostly because I do my best to never commit what I think is this worlds biggest sin. Which it taking offense, I just don't do it, I care to much about the big picture to let pettiness ruin my attitude. I never (almost never) set out to offend, to harm ones ego, emotions, or self worth. And if I do, I make it blatantly obvious.
And (I use this phrase mostly because my English teacher told me to NEVER do so.) in conclusion, because I like who I am, and see no real reason to change it, I have to live with the results. That means single, BTR(Bachelor Till Rapture), not because I want to, but because I choose to.
But I do have optimism, sometimes it wanes, but it is always there, that the Lord has made a mate for me, someone who can live with an insane person such as myself.
BlackWolf
Comments (9)
Dude, I appreciate your honesty; not referring to this post, but in your life in general. I'm not saying that if I was a girl then I would marry you, but I don't think there is no chance for you. Keep on keepin' on.
You're not allowed to comment. You have the backstory. I'm okay. I woke up with Jeremiah 29:11 going in my head. The amazing part about this time in life is it is not in June where I was broke and just down. Life is good right now, and this is not going to change that. I'll miss the person, but God will redeem the time and effort. I am tired of bending over backwards to make him comfortable with what I need. You were right the other day when you said it's just time to give it up.
Hey man, I lived with you. God made me for it. I was...prepared.
I have never seen a more true and accurate statement regarding the "sport" of baseball than that which you posted on Lady Lenard's site. Well said. Well said.
Hey There Black man- I mean black wolf, whatsup. I just wanted to say that I like you just the way you are. Even though, I am not a girl- I like you in a manly way of course. I like that you r blunt and you cut to the chasem, while other exhaust themselves with sugar coating and beating around bushes.
Assuming that someone who "massacres" lawn ornaments is qualified to say so...
So it is a good thing i'm a mexican . So i was just telling someone about you the other day!
what up homie..i am asking all to join my blogring
"i let my soul bleed through ink of my pen"
so please jump on it people...aight..
you can find it on my page...
holla
doesn't look good casey.
i work fri eve and sunday afternoon
too bad. maybe next time.
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