. . . she is married now. Her name was Cindy, she was a lot like Carrie, only Cindy was taller then me, and Carrie was shorter then me. Cindy was a bit skinny, and Carrie was a bit plump. Cindy had this great guy all the way from tenth grade through graduation, then ended up finding and marrying a distant cousin of mine, Carrie was the step daughter of my greatest and now deceased mentor, who stayed flirtingly single till she joined the Army and got married. As far as I know, Cindy is still married and a teacher in Colorado, Carrie is out of the service and a single mother. Both are still very pretty girls with great attitues. Why do I bring them up, both said at one time that they would date me if I lost a little weight. I was tempted greatly, but if I was willing to do that, what else would I be asked to change, where would it stop? Do I accept girls the way they are, or do I ask them to change to fit my picture of perfection. Is any of that right? I know this great girl but . . .

So, there has been something lingering in my thoughts and desires latley, one is to own land and help out those crazy people who work for next to nothing at a ministry by giving them a cheap place to live. Another is a Ford Excursion, with a diesel engine, come on you get twice the mileage, it lasts twice as long, and only costs twenty percent more for a gallon of diesel, then gasoline. The diesel engines of today burn super clean, and it takes a lot less processing at the refinery to make. I also desire to be debit free, this seems to be about the only thing even getting close to coming true. Children would be good, my own, I am really getting tired of barrowing other peoples. And last but not least, and probably should happen before I get the children, a wife. I have been alone for twenty eight years, I want someone to clean the dust off my heart, shine it up a little, someone I can finally find rest in. If God can creat Eve for Adam, what about me? I know this great girl but . . .

Just in case I missed you; Hello Beautiful, Happy Valentine's Day! Now of course this is only ment for the better half of our species, and just in case you are not sure I do mean the female half. And as a disclaimer, do not take this as a an attempt at pursuit, nor a romantic attemp to hook up. But if you do, feel free on letting me know that you would not mind me pursueing you, and we will see what arrangements can be made. As a note, if you look at when God created the world, everytime He finished something, His next step impoved upon and perfected His last step. So seeing as Eve was the last thing created it goes to reason that she was the most perfect of all. Think about that men, and ladies, and I dare you to try to prove me wrong. Anyways, I accidentally took Tylonal PM instead of plain Tylonal and really need to sleep, so here is goodbye.

I suppose you want to know the rest of the story. For those of you who are thinking "What the heck is he talking about?" scroll down and read the last post first. As I have said before, these posts are from my cell, and are only 1000 characters each. Here is the rest of the story; ... how bad America is, and what a numbskull Bush is. I listened for about 45 min, agreeing with some of his points, like the horrible shape our education system is in, and countering other points, like how much better our economy is with Bush in office. Anyways he finally left and I pulled into place to unload my truck, in the processs I ran over some 2"X3O' electrical conduit, which cost me a total of $214.80, then an hr. later when I was fueling my truck the hose popped out of the tank, luckily my face and hair kept the rest of my body diesel free. So now after a shower where I washed my hair and face 12 times, I am still waiting to hear from the Lord. I am not at all happy, and would really like to . . .

Let me start with my weekend, I got to see my sister Sam my Mom, Dad. My youth pastor Larry, the family of my "very recently deceased" Pastor Von, got to see him as well. Then my Uncle Marion, Aunt Charyol, cousin's Glenda and Mindi, Mindi's husband and kids, Jeff, Dylan, and Miria. Then my sister-in-law Chris, along with my niece and nephew, Kayla and Colby. All between thursday and sunday, in four different locations across three states. Great time had by all, my weekend was excellent, beating up kids, annoying my family, and having great conversations with everyone from two years old to ninety-one years old. Now lets not forget about this morning. I woke up in a great mood, prayed "Lord please reveal to me your will today." went to the bathroom, and headed off to unload my Load. Went I got there there was one truck in front of me, it was being drove by a man from france, who has been in the states for eighteen years, and stood there doing nothing except gripe and complain about...

Alright folks, I have been looking for the oportunity to take this pic for a long time.

Insert your own Bryan Regan quote below.

I have left my house, and am now at my Aunt and Uncles. Much fun with munchkins.

Me and my sister made a movie, if you are lucky I will let you see it.

I got to see Pastor Von one last time, it was a good moment to say good bye.

I am a bit down lately, and I guess I am mourning in a way.

Later,

BlackWolf

Well I saw my lovely sister Sam, I am hanging out with my Parents till tomorrow at about 9:00 MST. Then off to Denver. My youth pastor Larry Crooks flew in for the day to be with the family of my Pastor. I saw him, had about an hour to talk. Then headed over to Gladys house and visited with her for about 45 min. She admits that she is pretty busy with arrangements, and is waiting for it to really hit home. They went to sunday school together as children, been married for 64 years, were going to go to africa and be missionaries, but his health kept them here, kept him out of the wars, and allowed him to serve the Lord full time, for a life time. When I think of Moses, Abraham, Paul, great men of God, I rank Pastor Von right near them. I stopped by and insisted that the mortition let me visit for one last time. He wasn't ready yet, only embalmed, but it was a good visit to a man who deserves to be called a man. Not a boy like me, maybe someday, by the grace of God. Dear Lord . . . . . .

So lets start with the latest blessing. And no it is not that BeRekah Morris is not mad at me anymore, thats two blessings ago. The latest one is that the load I picked up in DuQuoin, IL has three drops, and inbetween each drop is family. The first drop is in Elkhorn, NE. Then I get to see my Sister Sam in Kearney, NE my folks and other sister Mary in Julesburg, CO. On my way to my second stop in Henderson, CO. Twenty miles from there are my aunt and uncle, thier kids and more cool then that, thier kids. Then on my way to Butte, MT. there is a very likely chance I will get to see my sister-in-law and her kids. What about the bad news? Well I have only really had one great example of how married people should be. My Pastor, Earl Vonerincrook, and his wife Gladys wedding was performed by a real dinosoar, they have been married that long, they are the only reason I even hold out for a wife. It looks like Pastor is about to cash in his chips and go home to Jesus. Good for him, hard for us.

I got pulled over while walking . . . again.

Dear Lord, why do I dear, why do I seek comfort in the dark familiar places . . .