OK I know some of you want to see pics from my new job, and pics of my new truck.  I currently am having very limited access to a computer in General, so I do have to apologize.  I did have a few moments to put this together for you.  I hope you enjoy. This is a front view of my truck, a 96' Kenworth.  Its not pretty but it gets down the road.  If you look closley you can see me with the camera in my hand while driving taking pictures.

This is a shot from the inside, yes the cab is that low.  On the good side of everything, I have gotten to see a lot of people on my travels.  Very nice. Oh yea and my mattress in this Kenworth is the best I have ever slept on.

My new job has come with a substantial pay increase, so I bought a new toy and have let some people play with it.  They all seemed to enjoy themselfs.

 

And these two are just real cool, so they get another shot in here, not to take away from the others who only have one shot, but this involved the sun, and you guys know how much I like pictures of the sun.

And I thought you might like to take a look inside a plant that makes stuff for nuclear reactors, and I only took and put up this picture because it was against the law and I am a rebel at heart.

And the next few pics involve the sweetest spot on earth, Hershey, PA., and a very sweet girl named Tonya Smackface . . . umm. . . er . . . Smoker.

And yes you all know just how excitable she is, and how I am not.  The pics prove it.

Yes Tonya that is a cow.

And she was also very sad when they almost didn't let us in the restaurant.  Just ignore the rather large chocolate bar, it has nothing to do with the pic at all.

I am very glad they let us in, because it was a swell time with our waitress Tracy, and we were all amazed at the homage that Red Robin pays as tribute to my most favorite Canadian, yes the one whom I almost proposed to once. Even I on occasion do get a slight bit excitable. . .rare occasion.

And a fitting end to this post of pictures involves me driving off into the sunset.

Love you all,

BlackWolf

PS No that is not really my hummer, and yes I really almost did propose to Robin, you should ask her about it, and do not pass on to the government that I am playing with thier hummers, and taking pics of stuff that will eventually end up in nuclear reactors, unless you hate me.

If I don't post for awhile its cause the government got a whole lot of annonomous tips as to these pictures and I am in jail or dead because of it.

BlackWolf

Now cause I know the below informational post is boring to some of you, here is what is going on in my life other then driving and hanging out with real cool people.

I have been finding some good discipline.  By no means am I perfect, but I am better then I was.

One of my fears of leaving TM was knowing full well that at TM if you make the choice to be apathetic and not seek after Jesus in any real significant manner that you will still find Him.  There is so much of Him just oozing out of every orifice of TM that you can't help but get some on and in you.  So naturally when I left, I knew of the times that I had been apathetic, and had just floated on down that river of Jesus Ooz, I had a fear that I could very well try to do the same in a world where you have to dig and dig deep just to find a speck of Him.

It was a well founded fear.  The first few weeks, with trying to get the hang of a  new life, and a new job there was not a lot of time to seek Him.  And I had an adjustment time, just as all who leave TM have, I have left four times, I knew what would happen, so now I have adjusted.  I still got work to do, but I am getting there at an expedited pace now.

I got in trouble the other day for talking bad about myself, and telling a friend of mine that I was still trying to learn Love, and that so far in my life I had failed at it.  He went off on me and after what seems like hours of me hanging my head listening to him speak truth into my life, I decided that it was time to quit feeling sorry for myself and push on.

Thanks to those friends of mine who care enough to risk friendship on doing the right thing.  It means a lot.  I have over the past couple years learned how to Love, and how to be Loved.  God is amazing.

I need more . . .

BlackWolf

PS don't forget to look below for where I have been, its really not that uninteresting.

So to catch you up on where I have been,

Bonham, TX to Bessemer, AL, to Deluth, GA, to Tampa, FL.

Three spools of big electrical cable.  Now nothing really exciting happened on this part of the trip.  I missed seeing in this order, Reane, Megan Duke, G, Certa(never even bothered to call him, cause he wasn't that close, but still was in the same state).

Tampa, FL to Plant City, FL

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Plant City, FL to Apex, NC

On this trip I missed Chris Corcoran, Cheeks, Jessica Surrat, and Paul Younger, but I did get to meet up with the great Bryan Boecker, and Genevieve Greenwell.  I was hauling some sidding.  10 pallets, to be exact.

Apex, NC to Ft. Bragg, NC

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Ft. Bragg, NC to Ft. Hood, TX

Here I missed the Trine Brothers, but I once again got to see Bryan, and Veeve.  Oh and I was hauling a couple of Hummvees . . . yea baby, that was real cool.  Bry, Veeve, and I took pics and had a great time.  On my way to Ft. Hood I stopped in Tyler and hung out with Abby, Alan, BeRekah and myself.  More pics with the Hummvee's.  Then I got to Ft. Hood and unloaded them.  I asked the guy supervising "Do you think I could back one of them off?" He looks around checking out the surrounding, office buildings, and a taramac full of Appache Helicopters, and gives me this look of, "If I could I would, and I would hop in the passenger seat and go with you.  Man I wish I was unloading in a more deserted part of the base.

Ft. Hood, TX to Scottsville, TX

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Scottsville, TX to Harrisburg, PA

Anouther load of cable.  10 reels this time.

I missed seeing both Tonya and Christine.

Harrisburg, PA to Bethleham, PA

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Bethleham, PA to Beaumont, TX, and Houston, TX

Three pieces of steel.  I sat in Bethleham overnight because the place I was picking them up at had a Forge that was sick.  So everyone was busy trying to get it fixed before it ruined a million dollar piece of metal that was being forged.  So that night I took what should have been a little mile and half walk into HellerTown to a Waffle House, I decided to take a walk through this park and by the time I got back to the Waffle House I had walked a good nine and a half miles. . . got some good pics though.

Then on my way back through Harrisburg I did get to stop in all stinky and dirty and see Tonya.  Oh my gosh, she took me to the sweetest spot on earth.  Hersey, PA.  Yes we did the tour, we ate chocolate, and we had more fun then should be allowed.  And again I got the pics to prove it.

Houston, TX to Scottsville, TX

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Scottsville, TX to two stops in Minnisota, and two stops in South Dakota

In route . . .

 

So I was watching a movie the other day, and during one part it made me realize just how much . . . Well I think you will get it if I just write out the last few lines.

***Fanny*** A prostitute who just had the jizzunk beat out of her and is dying from Tuberculosis.

Why did the gossip bother you?

You didn't have to fire me.

***Johnny V***Trying to take care of her, and attempting to take off her wet clothes so she can warm up in a bed, not his.

Your clothes are damp.

I have to get you some dry . . .

***Fanny***Thinking that this man is trying to take her like every other man in her current life.

Its alright.

There will be no charge, you deserve it.

I don't understand why you are so kind.

***Johnny V***Having refused and knowing that she was fired from his company simply because he had not had time to think clearly.

I was preoccupied. I didn't know.

If you had come straight to me, none of this . . .

You need to rest.

***Fanny***So set in her mind as a prostitute, she can not help but offer.

You don't want a kiss?

***Johnny V***Still refusing, offering to help knowing that it is his fault she had to turn to selling her body to make money to tend to her daughter.

I want you to rest.

And don't worry, I'll bring your daughter to you.

***Fanny***Thinking about all the shame that she would bring her daughter if she were to show up.

Yor're going to the Thenardiers?

***Johnny V

No I can't.

I'll send the money to bring Cosette here.

***Fanny***knowing the consequences of her daughter growing up in a small town with her mothers reputation.

She can't live with me.

***Johnny V***Knowing that he has power as mayor to help this mother and daughter.

Of course she can.

She will.

She'll attend the school, and you won't have any more worries . . .

When you are better I will find work for you.

***Fanny***Knowing that she is the ultimate sinner, and that no one could ever love her again.

But you don't understand.

I'm a whore, and Cossette has no father.

***Johnny V***Bringing it back to where it belongs, with the Lord.

She has the Lord.

He is her father.

And you are His creation.

In His eyes you have never been anything but an innocent and beautiful woman.

As Johnny V finished that last line, I had been paralleling Fanny's thoughts about how bad I was, and what a sinner I was, and how no one who took the time to really get to know me could love me, I mean if I have trouble loving myself, how could anyone else?

But there is someone out there who does, who loves me more then I ever deserve, and knows me better then even I know myself.  And knowing me from the inside out, He does not see my sin, He sees what He created.  A man, a man who loves Him, and tries to show it best as he is able.

No matter how many times I fall and fail, He is there, saying get up, try again.  I Love you.

No matter the times I think, "Is this life really worth living, why was I born into this pain, what did I do to deserve it, why am I always at the bottom, why can I not get ahead, why am I . . ." He is still sitting there waiting and telling me again, I Love you.

And you know what, I believe Him, and know His words to be true. And He does Love me.

And as bad as a man as I am right now, I am better then I was yesterday, and as I realize His Love more and more, I will become more and more better.

Go buy Les Meserables, the video, the book, go see the play, see the Love of Christ, His instant forgivness of our sins.

I don't care if it is french, it is good.  And most of you know that it hurts me to say that.

BlackWolf

So as you can see it does take me awhile to be able to get to and from a computer.

I am doing quite well, I am enjoying my new job a whole lot.  I love driving, coffee and Jesus, and with this job I get the chance to do it in about those quantities..

Oh I know what you are thinking, "Casey you have a coffee pot, a grinder, and bottled water why ain't coffee at the front of your list?"

Well my inverter is not cooperating with my truck, they are not friends yet.  I am working on their relationship.

But I was thinking to myself, being the critical one that I am, "Hey chump(that is what I refer to myself as when not getting along with myself) you have a Bible, High Speed Access to God ie; prayer, and Passion why is Jesus not at the front of your list?"

And I do have a number of excuses, I am not cooperating with Jesus, I seem to be trying to learn my new job so much that I am loosing out on time with Christ, I am not taking advantage of the down time to fit Him in, nor have I just scheduled time.  Oh don't get me wrong, I do get in some Praise and Worship, I do get in some reading, just not enough.

And well as far as the driving goes . . .

Big Lake, MN to Savage, MN

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Savage, MN to Mexia, TX

More of that SuperSac ground rubber, 22 skids this time.

Mexia, TX to Scottsville, TX

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Scottsville, TX to Phoenix, AZ

12 spools of electrical cable.  I was able to stop by the house for a day and a half, made time to speak with Caleb, and Clint.  Also had to go back to Mexia, TX in my car and pick up the tarps I left laying on the ground.  Good chance to hang out with Shawna . . .from the January team . . . and take pictures in the New Hope Cemetery.  Much fun was had that weekend.  Got to go to church as well.

Phoenix, AZ to Phoenix, AZ

Empty---It was about a forty mile drive, I am not crazy for putting Empty in here.

Phoenix, AZ to Woodlands, TX

AstraGlaze, Snow White, Cinder Block.

Woodlands, TX to Bonham, TX

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Bonham, TX to Bessemer, AL, to Deluth, GA, to Tampa, FL.

In route:  Three spools of big electrical cable.  I am currently on Campus doing some work.  Buring my pics and stuff.  Much Fun is being had, and Church tommorow, YE-Haw!!!!!!!!!

Oh and on another note, I need to talk to a number of people about a number of different subjects that will not be easy.  Pray that my words are guided by God and not by me, and that they have the effect that He means them to have.  So far He has not allowed them to happen, but He has let me know that they do need to happen.

BlackWolf

Well I have been out of touch for awile haven't I?

Here is a list of what I have been doing.

Ben Wheeler, TX to Boonville, Iowa

Load of 2 spools of wire, 16,000 lbs each.

Boonville to Des Moines, Iowa

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Des Moines to Natalia, TX

Load of ground up tires for a High School running track.  Got to be home for church, yeah!

Natalia to San Antonio, TX

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San Antonio to Albuquerque, NM

Four bundles of Steel Crossmembers for a constuction project on I-40.

Albuquerque to A . . .?(Barley north of Albuquerque)

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A . . . to Valentine, and Iraan(pronounced Ira Ann) TX

Load of Adobe Brick.

Iraan, to San Antonio

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San Antonio to Houston, TX to Shreveport, LA

Picked up three PODS shipping containers, one in each city.  Got to go to church between Houston, and Shreveport.

Baton Rouge, LA to Forest Park, GA, to Deluth GA

Droped off three said containers.

Deluth to Lawrenceville, GA

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Lawrenceville to Houston, Sugarland, TX, and Galveston, TX

A load of fertilizer to three Home Depots, in said cities.

Galveston to Pearland, TX

Empty, but I did stop and see two movies, Skelleton Key(wait for the DVD, not bad but not scary) and Four Brothers, go see it, very good, reminds me of my family.

Pearland, TX to Big Lake, MN(in route, sitting in Rogers, MN tonight paying 0.10 cents a min to type this)

Load of 11 steel pipes, 24 inches in diameter, and about 40 foot long.

So that is what I have been up to.  Sorry to have missed you all.

Remember when you set about to make friends with people, you are opening a part of your heart and making it vulnerable, and when you do that there will be a time when it will get hurt, sometimes many times, that is the price you must be willing to make, when you make that fateful decition to let someone into your heart.  Think first, then make your move.

And remember the Lord will not let you go through that which you are not stong enough to bear, with His help of course.

Oh yea, if you have a temptation that has plauged you for many years, and then you fall into that temptation, it usually isn't nearly as good as you wished it would have been, kinda disapointing actually.  Don't worry while I fell, I didn't fall all the way, I am still saved, but by the grace of the Lord only.

BlackWolf

PS to those who did read through this all, pray for me, I hurt, time will heal all wounds, and along the way rip open old ones and heal them again.  If I did not know the Lord I would be dead by now.

Well so long as some paperwork gets in from TM to my new place of employment, I will be driving tommorow.

Kinda cool.

So todays great happening is that I ate some salsa out of the fridge and after the first few bits I noticed that it tasted funny, did you know that salsa can go bad?

So my stomac is feeling a little woozy, not sure what to do about that.

Oh and on a darker note, some of you are under the impression that I will be around sometime before you graduate, but you should know that once I am on the open road, there is a chance I could be back in three days or three weeks.

Which means that if you see me, and you want to say goodbye, you should do it.  There are so many of you I would love to say so much to and about, but alas time is not on my side at this time.

To those who I miss, I am sorry.  And keep this as comfort, if I don't see you till we both die, we will always have heaven.

BlackWolf

Hello folks, just in case you have not heard yet, today is officially my last day at TM.

I am moving on to other challenges.

I view my time with TM as time of grooming and help to train the flock,  now as I move on I see it as time to get back to the real world and hopefully make the flock procreate.

I am decently excited about where I am going, I start orientation for my new job on Tuesday, and start driving the USA on Wednesday.

I will be making some decent money, be able to catch up on a few bills, and am working on fulfilling a dream that the Lord gave me.  No this is not the promised hope of China, which is as much about me as it is him, this is something totally about God.  I am working on a decent proposition and then you will all be . . . the word I want to use is blessed, but I do not know if it fits.

I have known about my transition of leaving TM for a few months, and have been working on the details of leaving for the past couple weeks.

The only regret I have, or may have, is that I might not be able to make graduation.  Yea this would be the second year in a row.

That would suck, I hope I get to make it.

Well peace to you all, call me if you want to know more details.

BlackWolf

PS this is what part of the alphabet would look like, if Q& R didn't exist.

PPS I have loved and enjoyed working with you guys and seeing you grow over the time I have known you.  To the January's and staff don't feel left out, I feel the same way about you I just don't have big group pics.  Hopefully you were able to grow closer to Christ because of me, and if not, oh well I was able to because of you, so at least someone benefited.

 

 

Jer. 29:11 "For I know the plans I have for you, says the LORD, plans for welfare and not for evil, to give you a future and a hope."__God

My fate is in your hands, hold me well and forgive my lack of faith, for I want you more desperatly then anything else, and if not then I want to want you more desperatly then anything else.

BlackWolf

"Not sure what to do, and am to scared to pray about it."

That is a quote from a guy I know, his name is Casey Glen Russell BlackWolf Fox and while it is true in a sense it is not true in another sense.

I do know what to do, and I know that by doing that it will answer the questions that are really bothering me.

If fact I know that the Christian life we claim to live is all to often all twisted up and made confusing by the only one that can make it that way.  Us.

It really is just as simple as making the most right decision at the time.  It really is that simple.  Why do we ponder it so much.

Just simply do what is the right thing to do.

I don't want to, cause if I do then I might just get stuck doing something I don't want to do.  Even though it is something I really want to do.

********************shakes head and re-reads what he just wrote****************************

You know what I wish all the above was about a girl, it sounds legitimate, in fact when I re-read it it was what I thought, and I am the one who wrote it.

Apparently my brain is a slight bit confused, I really should do something, like pray, and get done what I know I got to do.

BlackWolf